73 posts tagged “life”

Tree

Circumstances in my life the past 2 weeks have changed to the point where I have been unable to do the things I want to do and eat the foods I want to be eating.

Not giving up, just in a bad situation until Thursday.... welp... semi-bad. Bad in that it is costing me vasts amounts of money.

There are 3 more kids in my house right now that the wife and I have been watching and they eat FAR more than what is normally consumed in my house.

They are supposed to be gone on Thursday and then I can get my normal life back on track. It is my niece and nephews staying with us and the kids have been great, they really have. They are good kids... but I have been caring for them the last 2 weeks and I am now broke and will be unable to keep caring for them without a drastic alteration to budget.

Beech Forest in Spring

I wanted to go running before work this morning, but I woke up sicker than hell. The kind where you are doubled over in physical agony.

This medicine sucks.

I am considering not taking it tonight so that I feel good tomorrow.... but then... that would be bad wouldn't it?

I have noticed that if I wake up and just sit down and relax, I feel fine after about an hour. I could go running then, however I have to leave for work then. So my schedule of running on Thursdays, Saturdays and Sundays still stands for now.

I know the kind of person that I am, if I plunge into something all Gung Ho then I will eventually burn out. I have to be patient with myself and tackle this as an entire life style change. Once I make this a habit I am going to be pretty good and happier.

Part of me wants to be sad and depressed but a greater part of me is staying upbeat and happy. Sure I am going through pain now, however I am looking forward.

My Uncle tried to get up out of bed to go use the bathroom

Me: That is really not a good idea

Uncle: Why?

My Sister: Cause you have been sleeping the last 30 days and your legs won't work right.

Uncle: Well that ain't fair

lol... his sense of humor is intact.

As well as his crankiness.

This moment is one of the greatest moments in my life. I will remember this day.

Yesterday my Uncle was still in his state... not recognizing anyone...not talking...nothing.

Today is my son's birthday and this day has been awesome already, but it got better when my Uncle started talking and knows who everyone is.

FUCKING YES... He is talking... he is awake... he made fucking phone calls.

OMG!!!!!

One thing after another of positive good things has been hitting me since Sunday... even yesterday's dire news about my Uncle is now overshadowed.

• Sunday, The wife and I worked on getting the kids toys and bikes in the shed, getting ready for fall.
• Sunday, The wife cleaned the gutters and reinforced the sealant around the flashing ending a small pesky leak.
• Tuesday, The plumbing leak discovered by the plumbers in 10 minutes. Dug up the spot and fixed the broken pipe in a little over 1 hour. Total cost $106. The water bill is going to be obliterated and the money that would have gone to the bill instead went to repairs.
  

and the grand daddy of them all???

• My uncle began speaking and responding to commands to move.

I am overwhelmed by the flood of good things happening to us right now. I feel like we are accomplishing something... I feel like finally the sun is breaking through the rain clouds.

I am going to stay hopeful.

Sabbath Bloody Sabbath

Black Sabbath

I have not said anything about my Uncle ... well... because there was nothing to say.
This is a huge problem.

There is a lady in the next room to my Uncle whom had an aneurysm a week ago and is now sitting up eating and talking to her family.

My Uncle stares at the ceiling... after the first week he stopped responding to the questions. He stopped trying to communicate with us.

The doctors are now taking him down from his medications. They want to be absolutely sure that a medicine is not causing him to be in this state.

Because... this is the point where they are assessing him and when they are done... in some undetermined amount of time... they will let us know if we should...

I am sorry... I cannot see straight through the massive amount of tears I am pouring now.

But what I am trying to say is that there might come a time now where we basically shut him down.

If those assholes at the first hospital had done something sooner, the pressure could have been off of his brain sooner... and he would have had a much better chance of existing in a cognitive state..  Instead... my Uncle laid in their parking garage for an undetermined amount of time.

However... right now... whatever is left inside of him... is not my Uncle. Is not the man I grew up with always and forever since day 1 in my life, who gave me my very first stuffed animal as a child, who showed me the wonders of movies and music and how to have a good time.

He introduced me to Judas Priest, Iron Maiden, Ozzy, Dio and Black Sabbath... he was the reason I was a metal head at a young age.

My Uncle was metal... he was a metal god.

Nothing new to report yesterday. Still the same.

What did I tell you?

My Uncle now is going through the Vasospasms.

Yeah, his condition is now "Guarded"

Oh and my wife and I cannot find where the potential water leak is in our house, she was just in the crawl space and it is VERY dry in there....

They are going to have to dig up our yard and rape me in the butt at $70/hour

Sorry kids... Christmas is canceled this year. The rest of our savings is going to pay for part of this.

FUCK .... everything.... just fuck it all.

Let's see...

• Pneumonia? Check
• Blood Clots all down the left side of his body including lungs? Check
• Back On Life Support? Check
• Knocked out tooth due to putting him back on life support? Check
• Contracted Aids somehow? Negative

Oh so he does not have Aids or Ebola yet... but I would not be surprised if that happens on Tuesday and Thursday respectively.

Could my uncle go through any more possible hell please?

My Uncle is now in surgery. He has a blood clot in his lung.

Wonderful eh?